this is me lately

lately...
it bothers me when people say "you don't work what do you do all day?" well, let me just tell you what i do all day. my current state is hurry up and wait. wait for the boys to get out of school, hurry to boxing, wait for boxing to end, hurry home, hurry cook dinner, hurry to help with homework, wait...and talk someone in to doing their homework.
hurry. wait. hurry. wait. all.day.long.
while it's true i may not do a ton between 9am and 2pm that time is my time. time to be still in the lord, time to exercise, time to play on my blog, time to visit with my friends, time to clean my house and do laundry, time to quietly be in my home. it's mine! ok.

lately...
if i don't properly put on my armor in the morning, raising my children is difficult. it takes so much work. i am glad that God is waiting for me to call on him for help each day. i am learning or really HE is teach me to do all things with great love. i am thankful He is on my side.

lately...
i feel like mothering them is hard especially when my month away from being a teenager son looks at me like i belong in, on or at the dump. but, it's beyond worth it. they are turning in to respectful, responsible,  loving, and most importantly God fearing young men.

lately...
i have come to realize repetition is good even if it's tiring.

lately...
i want to eat homemade chocolate cookies all.day.long.

lately...
i have been praying non stop for rain, but today i am praying that it doesn't rain this weekend. i have plans with my momma. just us.

lately...
i have wanted to dig a hole and sit in it. just me. i am dramatic i know. but sometimes i am overwhelmed by life in general. it's so good but, it's moving so fast which brings me to another lately.

lately...
i want to freeze time my boys are growing so fast, and i miss them already.

lately...
i have been longing for another child. then i am reminded that i have four children waiting for me in heaven. someday i will hold them and rock them and all will be right in my world. my heart will no longer ache. in the mean time i know they are safe and warm and cared for and most importantly loved on.

lately...
i want to rearrange every last thing in my home, we live in a 1950's bungalow. it's the cutest little home ever but little is the key word. we have put a ton of stuff in storage...lately.

lately...
i have come to realize that change is good. often times sad but still good.

lately...
i have been reminding myself that i only see part of the picture and God see's it all. we have to be still in that.

lately...
my husband has been extra amazing, i am so blessed that God gave him to me. i hope i show him how thankful i am to be his wife. i still melt after 13 years when he refers to me as his wife.

lately...
i am obsessed with this verse:

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it has been on repeat in my brain.

what have you been up to lately?