life actually

I've avoided posting on my blog for what seems like an eternity. I've been such a downer. My go to attitude since I was a little girl is meloncholy, woe is me, and no one has it as bad as I do. Mature, I know! My life isn't bad. It never really has been. Sure, I've gone through my fair share of heart aches and disappointments but I'm healthy, my people are healthy what more could a girl want? My real actual life is busy and full of people that I love to no end unconditionally. But sometimes when you love people so much life can feel heavy and out of control. 

My boys are now 17 and 15. I know, I can hardly believe it myself. Time moves quickly and in the quickness of time I've gotten lost more times than I'd like to admit. Like for the last 3 years...

When my oldest entered high school I wasn't really prepared for what was to come. Teenaged humans have thoughts and opinions of their own even though you as parents raise them up one way, it really doesn't matter. They become aliens. It's intimidating. My priest has been telling me since the boys were little that raising them may at times, seem daunting but keep at it they will return to what they've been taught. 

Proverbs 22:6 runs on repeat through my head. 

This is me now, I'm sick of hiding from it. Life with teenagers is fun but it's draining. More often than not I feel defeated and exhausted. But together with Christ I think we're going to make it. 

 

heartfelt on friday: thoughts on comparison

this is one of my favorite corners of my home.

 sometimes i think need another hat so that the current arrangement stops looking like a smiley face, 

(my son think it looks like an alien. ha!)

but at the same time i sort of love that it does.

can i be real and heartfelt for a sec?

over the last few years, i've become insecure and find myself second guessing everything i do 

including how i've decorated my home.

 i've decided that that is such crap. 

and as they say, because it's true,

COMPARISON is THEIF of JOY.  

- theodore roosevelt

i preach this to my boys day in and day out and it's about time that i practice what i preach.

so, this is me stepping out of my kelly made box. showing you one of my favorite spots.

"do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God."

romans 12:2

motto || monday

for 2015 i've decided to choose a new motto every monday

because who doesn't love a good motto.

at the end of 2014 i decided to knock a few things off of my 

"things i've always wanted to do but haven't yet list"

SO

i went to the movies all by my lonesome.

it was glorious.

took a jelly roll quilting class. 

it was fun and a lot of work and i can't wait to take another.

i want to keep up with this momentum

which brings me to this week's motto:

that c.s. lewis was a smarty pants. 

 first up on my goals and dreams list is 

OPERATION

learn to use my dslr.

i mean, i've only had it for three years. 

happy monday friends.