life actually

I've avoided posting on my blog for what seems like an eternity. I've been such a downer. My go to attitude since I was a little girl is meloncholy, woe is me, and no one has it as bad as I do. Mature, I know! My life isn't bad. It never really has been. Sure, I've gone through my fair share of heart aches and disappointments but I'm healthy, my people are healthy what more could a girl want? My real actual life is busy and full of people that I love to no end unconditionally. But sometimes when you love people so much life can feel heavy and out of control. 

My boys are now 17 and 15. I know, I can hardly believe it myself. Time moves quickly and in the quickness of time I've gotten lost more times than I'd like to admit. Like for the last 3 years...

When my oldest entered high school I wasn't really prepared for what was to come. Teenaged humans have thoughts and opinions of their own even though you as parents raise them up one way, it really doesn't matter. They become aliens. It's intimidating. My priest has been telling me since the boys were little that raising them may at times, seem daunting but keep at it they will return to what they've been taught. 

Proverbs 22:6 runs on repeat through my head. 

This is me now, I'm sick of hiding from it. Life with teenagers is fun but it's draining. More often than not I feel defeated and exhausted. But together with Christ I think we're going to make it.