this kid.

he basically taught me how to love.
it's funny how you really think you know how to love,
then you have a child. 
and out of nowhere love is oozing from your out heart
 all over the place and you just wind up a one big oozy mess of love.

it feel like yesterday i was holding my little sugar bear snug in my arms never wanting to let go,
but you do eventually have to loosen your grip and let go.

it's hard.

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today he and i went to high school and registered him for the fall.

listen to the song below before or while you continue.
i heard this song for the first time recently and it reminds me of him...of us.

as we were waiting in line this verse played through my head. when in hold you in my arms, love, something changes  it's the strangest feeling  the things that used to matter, they don't matter     to me.
and boom prickly eyes, on the verge of ugly tears. thank goodness i snapped myself back into reality and pulled it together before he saw. i hate to be the embarrassing mom in public at home i let it flow. i had my girl camie in my purse but opted for my phone for the above reason. here's a little peak at registration.

say cheese...it's ID card time.
isn't he so handsome.

signing his intent to graduate.

 there will be a super cool raffle if he keeps this card and turns it back in his senior year.

painting your hand isn't just for kindergarteners. i thought you knew.

his mark on his class' year.  2 0 1 7  B A B Y !

i love the silly faces he makes. my sweet sugar bear, i pray that you always stay true to yourself  and that Christ remains number one in your life. i know that in this time of your life we will have struggles and wars of will, but always remember that i only want whats best for you even if i translate it poorly. when it comes time for you to make hard decisions  i hope that you know you can come with anything, i was young once too. God has big plans for you. i know that nothing but greatness is coming your way. i'll love you forever  i'll like you for always  as long as i'm living my baby you'll be. mmmmmuuuuuuaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!! xxO momma p.s. do you remember when you used to hold my face and kiss me and say mmmuuuaaahhh and your goal was to see how long you say it before you needed to take a breath? i miss that, but it would probably be super embarrassing for you to do that now. ha! i'm thankful for sweet memories.