1.26.2012

grandma

on tuesday my grandmother had a stroke. she's ok. she's not fully aware what is going on or fully awake.
it could be the medicine she's on, or her brain could be damaged.  my mission today is to get a hold of a nurse or a doctor and find out what exactly is going on.

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she has had a full life. a good life. a happy life. a life.

as much as i want to keep her here on earth with me. i know that God's plan is perfect. a perfect plan that i only get a glimpse of the big picture you know. i just wish i knew how to not worry, and how not to hurt.

today i am consumed with worry and hurt. and because of that i feel like i am not trusting in God's perfect plan. i feel like a traitor.

surely this post makes no sense. but that where i am today. a jumbled mess of confusion.

i even struggled with weather or not i should post this. but alas i did because this is me...now.
my little space for me to be me. what ever me maybe.

gina sent out the most wonderful email yesterday about God's will. it couldn't have come at a better time.
i bet she will send it to you if you ask. the email snapped me back into place. actually i think i should go read it again.

if you have a second will you pray for God's will concerning my grandmother.

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thanks ladies you mean more to me than you will ever know.
i love you tons.

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11 comments:

Aleks said...

keeping your family in my prayers! Gods has a much much bigger plan! Im sorry you are hurting.

stephanie said...

praying for you friend! that you get some answers about your grandma and that his peace would overtake you! love you bunches. so sorry you're going through this. :/

Anonymous said...

Thoughts and prayers are definitely with you and your grandma. And yes, Gina's email was definitely touching.

The Olive Tree Blog said...

praying for you sweet friend!

kinze said...

praying ... what a beautiful post about your grandma!

Laura said...

You express such peace during this tough time. I know it's tough; seeing loved ones in pain or worrying about them is never easy. But I can hear God speaking reassurances to you through your post. Prayers are coming your way.

henning love said...

i'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. always a tough situation and hard to understand definitely will sent up a prayer for your grandma, you and your family

katygirl said...

Oh no!! I'm so sorry Kelly!! I'm praying for you friend!

Sarah B. said...

I'm so sorry to hear this!! I'll be praying for you and for her - I hope it's a full recovery!

Moments and Impressions said...

Praying for you and her. So sorry.

Kate said...

Of course i will pray! Sorry all of this happened to your beautiful grandmother. That is just heartbreaking. She is one gorgeous woman that's for sure and you are so strong! Keep your head up and i will pray pray pray for you and your family! <3 <3 <3


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