i'm my own worst enemy.

you all know what i mean when i say i am my own worst enemy. RIGHT? well maybe not. I have a few health conditions, don't worry it's nothing that ails my day to day life but, will affect me in the future. i don't take care of myself as i should. like i said "i'm my own worst enemy!"

I have:
*antiphospholipid syndrome: which is a blood clotting disorder, i clot to quickly. we figured out i had this because i had two second trimester miscarriages. i clotted in the umbilical cord and demanded asked politely to have test done to find out why i was losing my babies. after i was diagnosed and treated i had two more miscarriages. the doctors decided the my boys were miracles. I THINK THEY ARE!

* high homocystine levels: which can damage the lining in your arteries, cause blood clots (NICE double whammy) and make women over the age of 50 more prone to heart attack and stroke.

* borderline hyperthyroid: which is an over active thyroid. the symptoms of this are ridiculous. they wont put me on medication because it's not officially high enough. however i suffer from symptoms. i.e. nervousness, restlessness, heart palpitations,  sleeping difficulties & increased appetite. this runs in my family.

for a while i was taking really good care of my self by eating right and exercising. and then little bumps in the road come along and first exercise goes out the window and soon after so does eating right.

i have all the tools and knowledge i need to be healthy and i don't use them. my husband has gotten or let me get me a treadmill, bike(s) stationary and mountain,  punching bad, speed bag, pull up bar, every workout video possible... such as windsor pilates, core essentials,  carmen electra's aerobic striptease.  it was all the RAVE!( did it once, my body doesn't move that way). tae bo, jackie warner ( who is brilliant by the way) and this list could go on and on.

i know what to do to eat right and i don't do it. I tell myself daily that i deserve to drink a PEPSI. i have a total weakness for it just check out my pinterest. i also have a weakness for anything of the mexican cuisine, anything white  you know the good stuff, and really good red wines. ahhh...

today however is a new day and i am jumping on the get fit train. do you want to join me??? you know you do.

i like having inspiration and motivation this is both inspiring & motivating me.

Source: saucyglossie.com via KellyVago on Pinterest

i know it says a$$ but, i really need to get off mine. SORRY!

i want to go from looking like this... to that pic above.
*which is not terrible, so please don't get me wrong. i'm just not as healthy as id like to be.

not a great pic but hey this is me NOW!

i have a couple really great intro to running plans maybe i will post them next week.

happy wednesday yo!